gwendelythaidan

sigh

Tue, 25 Mar 2008 13:51:58 GMT

So, its my birthday today, doesn't feel like it, I mean I have to work, I woke up at 9am My hubbies at work so I'm here alone. Not to mention I have to work today, to take calls from people who really shouldnt have cell phones. I mean come on. I tell them you have to take the battery offthe phone and then the line goes dead. COME ON PEOPLE ARE YOU REALLY THAT STUPID! But yea, I don't feel any different no pearls of wisdom or the like, just another day I guess. Meh, I guess thats life. Anyways not like anyone reads this anyways.

Hey!

Tue, 15 Jan 2008 16:02:20 GMT

Wow been forever since I updated this thing. Been busy I work now so its my excuse. I answer phones in a calling center. It sucks sometimes but its fun as well. The people I work with are fun sometimes, cant really say I'm friends with any of them, I mean one of the few people I talk to thinks he's Gods gift to the company...go figure always have to have one of those Aye? Don't know if anyone still even reads this but oh well. Been getting back to the wa it used to be with me and my hubby Cuddles and I miss yous all the time. I missed that, we like never see each other. When I get home from work he's going to bed. It sucks. But its getting better we were kinda drifting but we worked it out and now stronger than ever. People said we'de never make it as long as we have. We've been dating since high school that was 8 years ago. We've been married for two of those years. I think we're amazing together. Anyways...heehee. I don't know if anyone reads me but if ya do :D Love ya Muah!

Dove

:)

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 18:24:37 GMT

Name:
Age:
Phone Number:
Location:
Height:
Weight:
Hair (color and style):
Eyes:
Piercings/tattoos:

What Do You Think Of My...?
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Manners:
Friends:
Decisions:

W0ULD Y0U...
[] go out with me?
[] give me your number?
[] kiss me?
[] let me kiss you?
[] hold me?
[] watch a movie with me?
[] take me out to dinner?
[] drive me somewhere?
[] be my bf/gf?
[] hug me?
[] buy me food?
[] take me home to meet your family?
[] sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
[] re-post this for me to answer your questions?
[] give me a piggyback ride?
[] come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?

D0 Y0U...
[] think im cute?
[] want to kiss me?
[] want to cuddle wit me?
[] want to hook up with me?
[] care if i never wanted to talk to you?

AM i...
[] smart?
[] cute?
[] funny?
[] cool?
[] intersting to talk to?

HAVE Y0U EVER...
[] thought about me?
[] thought there might be an "us"?
[] thought about hookin up with me?
[] found yourself wanting to kiss me?
[] wished i were there?

Well Yea

Sun, 02 Jul 2006 06:58:35 GMT

Ok So lately...I've been extremely happy. Yea hard to believe right...nothing to really complain about. My best friend is moving home Dove is 55 Mc attuned picked up her relic from BRD...Idol Of Ferocity....almost 56...so yea thats good news...happiness is really kick ass...I don't remember a time where i've felt this happy...

COuld be all the caffine...

Or the fact I've lost 10 pounds in the past month..

Or that I stopped worrying about stupid shit i can't control

ANYWAYS....Love, Peace, and CHicken grease

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 04:29:53 GMT

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Tue, 20 Jun 2006 04:28:25 GMT

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Stupid Me

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 06:12:29 GMT

God I'm an Idiot sometimes... I say stuff i shouldn't say, feel things i shouldn't feel. I wish i could clone myself maybe it wouldn't be so bad. My hubby can have the real me and the rest of my admires can fight over the clone....Like i saids stupid but i need to get this out...Part of it is my fault and i know that I'm a natural flirt half the time o don't realize i do it...

I don't know what to do anymore...I'm sorry if this offends anyone but i need to get it out...
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Crawling-Linkin Park

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real

there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming/confusing
this lack of self-control I fear is never ending
controlling/I can't seem

to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
so insecure

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real

discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
distracting/reacting
against my will I stand beside my own reflection
it`s haunting how i cant seem...

to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
so insecure

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing confusing what is real

there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming/confusing what is real
this lack of self-control I fear is never ending
controlling/confusing what is real

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I can't fucking sleep but don't wanna be awake either...

I'm sorry if i said anything to get you mad at me on WoW you know who you are...

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"Bring Me To Life"
(feat. Paul McCoy)

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

now that I know what I’m without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

(Bring me to life)
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside
(Bring me to life)
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Love my choice of music tonight......anyways.....

Night

Thingy....

Tue, 30 May 2006 03:30:08 GMT

My name:
Who is the love of my life:
Where did we meet:
Take a stab at my middle name:
How long have you known me:
When is the last time that we saw each other:
Do I smoke:
Do I drink:
What was your first impression of upon meeting me/seeing me:
What's one of my favorite things to do:
Am I funny:
What's my favorite type of music:
What is the best feature about me:
Am I shy or outgoing:
Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:
Do I have any special talents:
Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else (what):
Have you ever hugged me:
What is my favorite food:
Have you ever had a crush on me:
If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be:
What's your favorite memory of me:
Who do I like right now:
What is my worst habit:
If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what is the one thing I would bring?
Are we friends:
Do you want us to be more than friends?
Will you repost this so I can do it?

Tue, 23 May 2006 22:02:47 GMT

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Tue, 23 May 2006 22:00:40 GMT

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Goth Me! Ain't i purty.

Urg...Flashbacks

Wed, 10 May 2006 06:26:35 GMT

Well today was going alright til something triggered my emotional button and had a bad flashback...i get them about once every year but thankfully I got to e with friends in my guild and vented and crap so its still not the same as talking to friends but i prolly would have cried talking to some of my best friends. but that should come tomorrow.

yeah well that settles it

Sun, 07 May 2006 04:08:34 GMT

Totally addicted
You are 76% Addicted!

When the server's down, its like the end of the world. You check your auctions before going to work, you love the game and everything it involves. Remember that other game called real life? Its not any fun, anyway! Keep it up! And remember, its just a game, but its the best game ever!

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 50% on addiction level

Link: The World of Warcraft Addiction Test written by survivedestiny on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

well i was hoping i wasn't that bad but guess i am :)

Mon, 01 May 2006 02:43:42 GMT

and this is me and her at my wedding

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i couldn't get the picture to load right so heres just Abbie

WoW

Sun, 16 Apr 2006 06:56:35 GMT

Again with this topic my druid is 46 now will be 47 by wed. Link I know you read this i still think you should make a horde char on durotan...you'd elike some of the friends i've made... they're cool. Anyways......Happy Easter All

WoW

Sun, 26 Mar 2006 20:34:32 GMT

Well today is the day after my birthday i'm just waiting for the festivities to start. My party is today. Matt stayed up til 2am getting everything ready for today. I love him so much but...Back on subject the subject is......World of Warcraft... Normally i play on durotan but have charas on Wildhammer, Emrald Dreams (arielis), and a few others....My main Character is a lvl 43 tauren druid named Dove Matt helps me lvl her because he wants to use her to PvP. Fine with me I get help lvling the character that i've had since last febuary...I know I suck right LOL...Everybody asks when they see me...Your not 60 yet anyways... Lots of new friends made and more new friends to be made...Hope to see you on ;)

I Miss Ya Buddy

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 17:36:16 GMT

Edward T. George, Jr. of New Hartford
Mr. Edward T. George, Jr., a well-known and respected local pharmacist, age 68, of New Hartford, passed away unexpectedly on Wednesday, January 18, 2006, at his home. Born in Utica on June 19, 1937, Edward was the son of Anna M. (Grimaldi) George and the late Edward T. "Ed" George, Sr. Raised and educated locally, he was a graduate of T.R. Proctor High School. He graduated from the University of Buffalo's School of Pharmacy. On September 8, 1968, he was joined in marriage with the former Leilani Ball. Edward and Leilani were wonderful companions whose lives together were in balance and harmony. After graduating, Mr. George joined his father in operating the family's business, George's Pharmacy; located at 701 South St., the store was legendary throughout the east side of Utica. After the pharmacy's closing, he then accepted a position with Rite-Aid in Frankfort. Throughout his career, he demonstrated a strong work ethic and unquestioned integrity. The central focus of Edward's life was his family and the countless joys he received from his three daughters and from Scott who was his "son." He was a compassionate man who was a constant source of wise and helpful advice to his family and friends. He also believed in destiny, guardian angels, and the concept that nothing is impossible. He loved nature and found meaning and significance in the natural world: the ocean was a source of great peace for him. Gifted with a unique sense of humor, he was an adventurous and fun-loving individual. Edward loved Utica and was proud to be a native of this area. He was an avid fan of the Yankees, the Giants, the Rangers, and the old Clinton Comets. He loved all kinds of music and regularly attended the opera in Cooperstown, local performances of the Utica Symphony, and the Boston Pops. One of his favorite pastimes was his garden, and he was especially noted for his tomatoes and mini-roses. Mr. George is survived by his wife, Lani; his mother, Anna, who resides at the Heritage Home; his three daughters, Luana George of New Hartford, Taryn George and her husband, Eric Fenner, and Lisanne and Fred Matrulli, all of Charlotte, and Scott Wood whom he mentored throughout his life, always referring to him and loving him as his son. His survivors also include a brother and his wife; several aunts, including Geri Jarvis; a number of nieces, nephews, cousins, and in-laws; and his godson, Joey LaBella. In addition, Edward was blessed with many loyal friends and business associates, with special mention of Terri and Nick LaBella and family, Rosemarie and Lou Mancuso and family, Maria and Rich Salamida and family, and the entire Lubertine family. The family offers its sincere thanks to the volunteer members of the New Hartford Fire Dept. and the Edwards Ambulance Service for their timely response and kind assistance. Visitation will be held today (Sunday) from 3-6 at the Eannace Funeral Home, Inc., 932 South St., corner of Hammond Ave. By family request, please omit floral offerings. For those wishing to do so, please consider memorial contributions in Edward's name to the local chapter of either the American Heart Assn. or the Multiple Sclerosis Society; envelopes will be available at the funeral home. A Celebration of Life will be held in Mr. George's honor on Sunday at 6:00 at the funeral home at the conclusion of calling hours with Father Anthony LaFache officiating.

LaLaLaLa

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 04:28:00 GMT

Well all the past few weeks have been like hell on earth I'm only getting 10-16 hours at work cleaning my house and trying to keep in touch with a friend of mine who is going through a tough time. Screw it shes like my sister and she moved on me about 3 years ago and she wants to come home and asked if she did could she stay with Matt and Me Like I'm going to turn her away. This girl has been the one thing that kept me sane while living in a freezing cold apt with no heat and another roomate who was a lazy witch anyways This girl sat up with me at night calming me down so i wouldn't punch the walls and hurt myself. Shes been my BFF for 5 years now. Hell No I'm not telling her she can't stay with me I Love her as if she has been a part of my family since the beginning.

The dance

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 21:05:49 GMT

The Dance
Garth Brooks

Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared 'neath the stars alone
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I a king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey who's to say you know I might have chanced it all

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

Yes my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance

I never regret meeting any of the people I've met in my life some people I still get to talk to but others I've tried and they ignore. This song makes me think of them anyways...

Christmas

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 06:15:53 GMT

Well all as much as i hate to admit it...Its christmas eve and I'm still awake cause I suck and can't sleep. The past month went as follows...

1) Did lots of christmas shopping for people who probly won't appriciate it.

2) Have been really addicted to world of warcraft :)

3)Had my hour scut yet again :(

4) Got a whole bunch of people pissed off at me in my guild on WoW

All in all Married life is good I love Matt with all my heart I'm singing a solo at church on Sunday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS!!!

And a Merry Christmas To All!!!

Thanksgiving

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 16:20:28 GMT

Well all Thanksgiving is only 4 days away so Matt and I are cleaning house top to Bottom because we're hosting this year. We have the most room cause we have the least amount of stuff and a big couch.So if i don't write for a few days don't worry I'm just busy with the cleaning and making a cherry cheesecake. and other happy things like that.

Yay for quizzy

Sun, 13 Nov 2005 06:00:01 GMT

//Series One - Yourself
Full Name: Sara Jane McDonald
Nicknames:Sara #1
Birth date:March 25
Birthplace: Gloversville, Ny
Current Location: Ilion, NY
Eye Color: hazel
Hair Color: Brownish
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Aries

// Series Two - Describe
The shoes you wore today: Hiking Boots
Your hair: Ponyatil
Your weakness: world of Warcraft and My Hubby
Your fears: Being alone
Your perfect pizza: Peperoni
One thing you'd like to achieve: Have a wonderful and Happy life

// Series Three - What Is
Your most overused phrase:And a goblin rapes you (stolen from Link)
Your thoughts first waking up: Already?
The first feature you notice in the opposite(or same) sex: Face
Your best physical feature: Ummm....lets just say DD
Your bedtime: Whenever I fall asleep
Your greatest accomplishment: Getting Married
Your most missed memory: playing Football

// Series Four - You Prefer
Pepsi or coke: Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King: BK
Single or group dates: Single
Adidas or Nike: Wahtevers cheap
Chocolate or vanilla: CHOCOLATE
Cappuccino or coffee: Hot Cocoa

// Series Five - Do You
Cuss: I try not to
Take a shower everyday: Nope but i try to Bathe everyday
Have a crush(es): Yeah
Do you think you've been in love: Yep
Want to go to college: Yes and No
Like high school:I met Matt in High School
Want to get married: Already aaaaam
Think you're attractive: Not really
Think you're a health freak: I'm an unhealth freak
Get along with your parents: My mom is like my best friend.
Like thunderstorms: Yeah, they are so pretty

//Series Six - This Month, Did/Have You
Drink alcohol: nope
Done a drug: No
Made Out: Hell Yeah...Married..::flashes the sparkly::
Go on a date: No
Go to the mall: Nope
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: Nope o_o
Been on stage: Nope
Been dumped: No, and I hope I won't be!
Made homemade cookies: Yes

// Series Seven - Have You Ever
Played a game that required removal of clothing: Yes
If so, was it mixed company: Yes
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Nope
Been caught "doing something": Almost. Someone was like in the next room... then again, everyone knew what was going on back in Herk XD
Been called a tease: Yeah
Gotten beaten up: Yes
Shoplifted: Nope
Changed who you were to fit in: Almost

// Series Eight - The Future
Age you hope to be married: I;m 24
Numbers and names of Children:5 twin Boys and 3 girls...Issac Isiah Hannah Khrystal Katiara
Describe your dream wedding: no
How do you want to die: Defending what I believe in
Where you want to go to college:
What do you want to be when you grow up: a good Mother
What country would you most like to visit: SCOTLAND

// Series Nine - Opposite(Same) Sex
Best eye color: Blue
Best hair color: Its a tie I've had crushes on Blondes and Brown hair ;)
Short or long hair: Long preferably
Best articles of clothing: T-shirt and jeans
Best first date location: Depends on the person
Best first kiss location: Does it matter?

// Series Ten - Number Of
Number of boyfriends you've had: 6
Number of girlfriends: None

Trying to have fun

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 04:13:42 GMT

Well Things are getting better I only have to sit outside work 15 minutes now..LOL. I found my leather jacket which is a big Hoorah becauds eits the only semi winter jacket i own....I think the last of my debts are going to be paid off. So I'm starting to get happy now. Except one of my family members thinks she may be pregnant/wants to get pregnant/ is in lot and lots of debt and cant support a baby...and her hubby has no job

Gah......

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 15:38:27 GMT

I don't know why i even keep this stupid thing nobody ever reads it. Oh I know its the one way i can all my frustrations out...and latly i've been frustrated alot.

1.Everybody likes to come over to my house because Its conveniant for them to come over to my house to play WoW...because they know i won't say anything and Matt won't say anything cause Matt lets them stay in the house when no one is home.

2.Peopel sitting near me waiting to get on the computer because Matt said they could come over.

3. Having to sit outside my work at 9pm to 9:30 waiting for a ride.

4. Not having a cell phone to call said people for a ride because matt doesn't want me to have any more bills and Cell Phones have 2year contracts.

God I just want to scream but i can't cause I have to be perfect and Nice or my family hates me.

Halloween Night

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 02:34:38 GMT

Well today was suppose to be the first year I get to take my niece trick or treating. But...at 5:30 when trick or treating was supposed to start they didn't show upand since i was going with friends they were ready to go so I had to go without her. It really hurt cause i was all worked up and i went out of my way to plan my costume to match hers She was suppose dto be scooby doo and i dressed like Velma. I went out of my way to make sure I had everything and requested the night off so I could do this and I ended up having to go without her. and i askedf what Her mother said when she brought her by and my husband said she never showed up and believe it or not that hurt more.

if you didn't want me to take just tell me don't say yeah you can take her and then just don't show up.

But this is really upseting me so I'm going now bye.

Bored

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 13:17:43 GMT

well its been a while and rightfully so. Getting used to life with my Hubby. I luv him lots and well blah. I have nothing really important to talk about i could tell you about my trip to oneonta with my friend Sara M. Who i havn't seen in two years.And she took me to a party (well not really a party it was people sitting around a camp fire, drinking and smoking.) But we also went roller skating so that was fun. But i have to go for now Peace.