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09:47 am - *sigh*

So, its my birthday today, doesn't feel like it, I mean I have to work, I woke up at 9am My hubbies at work so I'm here alone. Not to mention I have to work today, to take calls from people who really shouldnt have cell phones. I mean come on. I tell them you have to take the battery offthe phone and then the line goes dead. COME ON PEOPLE ARE YOU REALLY THAT STUPID! But yea, I don't feel any different no pearls of wisdom or the like, just another day I guess. Meh, I guess thats life. Anyways not like anyone reads this anyways.

Current Mood: depressed

10:54 am - Hey!

Wow been forever since I updated this thing. Been busy I work now so its my excuse. I answer phones in a calling center. It sucks sometimes but its fun as well. The people I work with are fun sometimes, cant really say I'm friends with any of them, I mean one of the few people I talk to thinks he's Gods gift to the company...go figure always have to have one of those Aye? Don't know if anyone still even reads this but oh well. Been getting back to the wa it used to be with me and my hubby Cuddles and I miss yous all the time. I missed that, we like never see each other. When I get home from work he's going to bed. It sucks. But its getting better we were kinda drifting but we worked it out and now stronger than ever. People said we'de never make it as long as we have. We've been dating since high school that was 8 years ago. We've been married for two of those years. I think we're amazing together. Anyways...heehee. I don't know if anyone reads me but if ya do :D Love ya Muah!

Dove

Current Mood: energetic

02:24 pm - :)

Name:
Age:
Phone Number:
Location:
Height:
Weight:
Hair (color and style):
Eyes:
Piercings/tattoos:

What Do You Think Of My...?
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Manners:
Friends:
Decisions:

W0ULD Y0U...
[] go out with me?
[] give me your number?
[] kiss me?
[] let me kiss you?
[] hold me?
[] watch a movie with me?
[] take me out to dinner?
[] drive me somewhere?
[] be my bf/gf?
[] hug me?
[] buy me food?
[] take me home to meet your family?
[] sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
[] re-post this for me to answer your questions?
[] give me a piggyback ride?
[] come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?

D0 Y0U...
[] think im cute?
[] want to kiss me?
[] want to cuddle wit me?
[] want to hook up with me?
[] care if i never wanted to talk to you?

AM i...
[] smart?
[] cute?
[] funny?
[] cool?
[] intersting to talk to?

HAVE Y0U EVER...
[] thought about me?
[] thought there might be an "us"?
[] thought about hookin up with me?
[] found yourself wanting to kiss me?
[] wished i were there?

02:53 am - Well Yea

Ok So lately...I've been extremely happy. Yea hard to believe right...nothing to really complain about. My best friend is moving home Dove is 55 Mc attuned picked up her relic from BRD...Idol Of Ferocity....almost 56...so yea thats good news...happiness is really kick ass...I don't remember a time where i've felt this happy...

COuld be all the caffine...

Or the fact I've lost 10 pounds in the past month..

Or that I stopped worrying about stupid shit i can't control


ANYWAYS....Love, Peace, and CHicken grease

Current Mood: giggly

12:29 am

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12:28 am

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01:45 am - Stupid Me

God I'm an Idiot sometimes... I say stuff i shouldn't say, feel things i shouldn't feel. I wish i could clone myself maybe it wouldn't be so bad. My hubby can have the real me and the rest of my admires can fight over the clone....Like i saids stupid but i need to get this out...Part of it is my fault and i know that I'm a natural flirt half the time o don't realize i do it...

I don't know what to do anymore...I'm sorry if this offends anyone but i need to get it out...
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Crawling-Linkin Park

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real


there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming/confusing
this lack of self-control I fear is never ending
controlling/I can't seem


to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
so insecure

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real

discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
distracting/reacting
against my will I stand beside my own reflection
it`s haunting how i cant seem...

to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
so insecure

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing confusing what is real

there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming/confusing what is real
this lack of self-control I fear is never ending
controlling/confusing what is real


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I can't fucking sleep but don't wanna be awake either...

I'm sorry if i said anything to get you mad at me on WoW you know who you are...

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"Bring Me To Life"
(feat. Paul McCoy)

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

now that I know what I’m without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

(Bring me to life)
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside
(Bring me to life)
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Love my choice of music tonight......anyways.....

Night

Current Mood: depressed

11:29 pm - Thingy....

My name:
Who is the love of my life:
Where did we meet:
Take a stab at my middle name:
How long have you known me:
When is the last time that we saw each other:
Do I smoke:
Do I drink:
What was your first impression of upon meeting me/seeing me:
What's one of my favorite things to do:
Am I funny:
What's my favorite type of music:
What is the best feature about me:
Am I shy or outgoing:
Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:
Do I have any special talents:
Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else (what):
Have you ever hugged me:
What is my favorite food:
Have you ever had a crush on me:
If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be:
What's your favorite memory of me:
Who do I like right now:
What is my worst habit:
If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what is the one thing I would bring?
Are we friends:
Do you want us to be more than friends?
Will you repost this so I can do it?

06:01 pm

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05:59 pm

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Goth Me! Ain't i purty.

02:17 am - Urg...Flashbacks

Well today was going alright til something triggered my emotional button and had a bad flashback...i get them about once every year but thankfully I got to e with friends in my guild and vented and crap so its still not the same as talking to friends but i prolly would have cried talking to some of my best friends. but that should come tomorrow.

12:00 am - yeah well that settles it

Totally addicted You are 76% Addicted!

When the server's down, its like the end of the world. You check your auctions before going to work, you love the game and everything it involves. Remember that other game called real life? Its not any fun, anyway! Keep it up! And remember, its just a game, but its the best game ever!

10:33 pm

and this is me and her at my wedding

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i couldn't get the picture to load right so heres just Abbie

02:46 am - WoW

Again with this topic my druid is 46 now will be 47 by wed. Link I know you read this i still think you should make a horde char on durotan...you'd elike some of the friends i've made... they're cool. Anyways......Happy Easter All

Current Mood: amused

03:27 pm - WoW

Well today is the day after my birthday i'm just waiting for the festivities to start. My party is today. Matt stayed up til 2am getting everything ready for today. I love him so much but...Back on subject the subject is......World of Warcraft... Normally i play on durotan but have charas on Wildhammer, Emrald Dreams (arielis), and a few others....My main Character is a lvl 43 tauren druid named Dove Matt helps me lvl her because he wants to use her to PvP. Fine with me I get help lvling the character that i've had since last febuary...I know I suck right LOL...Everybody asks when they see me...Your not 60 yet anyways... Lots of new friends made and more new friends to be made...Hope to see you on ;)

12:25 pm - I Miss Ya Buddy

Edward T. George, Jr. of New Hartford
Mr. Edward T. George, Jr., a well-known and respected local pharmacist, age 68, of New Hartford, passed away unexpectedly on Wednesday, January 18, 2006, at his home. Born in Utica on June 19, 1937, Edward was the son of Anna M. (Grimaldi) George and the late Edward T. "Ed" George, Sr. Raised and educated locally, he was a graduate of T.R. Proctor High School. He graduated from the University of Buffalo's School of Pharmacy. On September 8, 1968, he was joined in marriage with the former Leilani Ball. Edward and Leilani were wonderful companions whose lives together were in balance and harmony. After graduating, Mr. George joined his father in operating the family's business, George's Pharmacy; located at 701 South St., the store was legendary throughout the east side of Utica. After the pharmacy's closing, he then accepted a position with Rite-Aid in Frankfort. Throughout his career, he demonstrated a strong work ethic and unquestioned integrity. The central focus of Edward's life was his family and the countless joys he received from his three daughters and from Scott who was his "son." He was a compassionate man who was a constant source of wise and helpful advice to his family and friends. He also believed in destiny, guardian angels, and the concept that nothing is impossible. He loved nature and found meaning and significance in the natural world: the ocean was a source of great peace for him. Gifted with a unique sense of humor, he was an adventurous and fun-loving individual. Edward loved Utica and was proud to be a native of this area. He was an avid fan of the Yankees, the Giants, the Rangers, and the old Clinton Comets. He loved all kinds of music and regularly attended the opera in Cooperstown, local performances of the Utica Symphony, and the Boston Pops. One of his favorite pastimes was his garden, and he was especially noted for his tomatoes and mini-roses. Mr. George is survived by his wife, Lani; his mother, Anna, who resides at the Heritage Home; his three daughters, Luana George of New Hartford, Taryn George and her husband, Eric Fenner, and Lisanne and Fred Matrulli, all of Charlotte, and Scott Wood whom he mentored throughout his life, always referring to him and loving him as his son. His survivors also include a brother and his wife; several aunts, including Geri Jarvis; a number of nieces, nephews, cousins, and in-laws; and his godson, Joey LaBella. In addition, Edward was blessed with many loyal friends and business associates, with special mention of Terri and Nick LaBella and family, Rosemarie and Lou Mancuso and family, Maria and Rich Salamida and family, and the entire Lubertine family. The family offers its sincere thanks to the volunteer members of the New Hartford Fire Dept. and the Edwards Ambulance Service for their timely response and kind assistance. Visitation will be held today (Sunday) from 3-6 at the Eannace Funeral Home, Inc., 932 South St., corner of Hammond Ave. By family request, please omit floral offerings. For those wishing to do so, please consider memorial contributions in Edward's name to the local chapter of either the American Heart Assn. or the Multiple Sclerosis Society; envelopes will be available at the funeral home. A Celebration of Life will be held in Mr. George's honor on Sunday at 6:00 at the funeral home at the conclusion of calling hours with Father Anthony LaFache officiating.

11:22 pm - LaLaLaLa

Well all the past few weeks have been like hell on earth I'm only getting 10-16 hours at work cleaning my house and trying to keep in touch with a friend of mine who is going through a tough time. Screw it shes like my sister and she moved on me about 3 years ago and she wants to come home and asked if she did could she stay with Matt and Me Like I'm going to turn her away. This girl has been the one thing that kept me sane while living in a freezing cold apt with no heat and another roomate who was a lazy witch anyways This girl sat up with me at night calming me down so i wouldn't punch the walls and hurt myself. Shes been my BFF for 5 years now. Hell No I'm not telling her she can't stay with me I Love her as if she has been a part of my family since the beginning.

03:56 pm - The dance

The Dance
Garth Brooks

Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared 'neath the stars alone
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I a king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey who's to say you know I might have chanced it all

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

Yes my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance

I never regret meeting any of the people I've met in my life some people I still get to talk to but others I've tried and they ignore. This song makes me think of them anyways...

Current Mood: thoughtful

01:03 am - Christmas

Well all as much as i hate to admit it...Its christmas eve and I'm still awake cause I suck and can't sleep. The past month went as follows...

1) Did lots of christmas shopping for people who probly won't appriciate it.

2) Have been really addicted to world of warcraft :)

3)Had my hour scut yet again :(

4) Got a whole bunch of people pissed off at me in my guild on WoW

All in all Married life is good I love Matt with all my heart I'm singing a solo at church on Sunday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS!!!

And a Merry Christmas To All!!!

Current Mood: accomplished

11:11 am - Thanksgiving

Well all Thanksgiving is only 4 days away so Matt and I are cleaning house top to Bottom because we're hosting this year. We have the most room cause we have the least amount of stuff and a big couch.So if i don't write for a few days don't worry I'm just busy with the cleaning and making a cherry cheesecake. and other happy things like that.

Current Mood: amused